Update on my mom #3

It was good to get back into the work routine although I still wish I lived closer to my mom so I could help out. Yesterday morning, as I was saying goodbye to my mommy, I asked her if she knew who I was. She shook her head, "no". I said, "I'm your daughter, Lisa. Do you know who I am?" She shook her head again. I went down the list of family members and she only nodded to Kapua and Danny. She didn't even know who Annette was (that's her name). By the time I reached the car, I was crying like a baby. I guess I need to process the loss of relationship with my mom as it used to be. I'm really sad.

On a more positive note, it looks like our prayers have been answered as she will be moving to the nursing home in Kapolei, making it easier for my dad to visit her every day. Thank you all for praying with us.

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Kelli Torrez (San Francisco, CA) wrote at 10:03pm on November 28th, 2008 Lisa, that must be so hard. I admire how strong you are. I am so sorry that you are going through this my dear sister. I am praying and praying for you that God will give you peace and comfort and a miricle healing for your mom. Many blessings to you Report - Delete

Debbie Brittain wrote at 10:03pm on November 28th, 2008 I'm sorry, Lisa,...will continue to pray for you and your family. Report - Delete

Debbie Ashcraft wrote at 10:36pm on November 28th, 2008 I am so sorry Lisa. My heart is totally breaking with yours. Thank God your Mom was able to be closer to your Dad. We are all praying for her and for each of you. ♥ ♥ ♥ Report - Delete

Lulu Williams wrote at 8:58am yesterday Lisa, I am so sorry about your Mom - I pray that the peace of God will surround you continuously because He is the only one who can give you comfort at this time. My prayers are with you and your family. It is good that your Dad will be able to go and see your Mom now. love Lulu Report - Delete

Karen Joe Johnson wrote at 12:49pm yesterday Dear Lisa, so sad for you. Just wanted you to know that you are on my heart here in VA. It is a lot to bear seeing your mom lose touch with you all and her lifetime of memories. Life can be so very sad, and it seems to come all at once. It is a great comfort that someday it will all be restored. You are in my prayers for comfort and strength and hope and courage. Much love, Karen Report - Delete

Maisha Lauer wrote at 1:44pm yesterday Lisa, I am praying for you! I am so very sorry that you have go through this. "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am." John 14:1-3 Love, Maisha Report - Delete

Sandy Mosley wrote at 2:18pm yesterday My heart is with you Lisa, it must be a sad time for you. Try to remember all the good things/good memories of times spent with your Mom before this happened. Hugs and Prayers Report - Delete

Lisa Gesinger (Portland, OR) wrote at 3:02pm yesterday Lisa, Thank you so much for sharing what you are going through with your mom. I am humbled by your continued grace in your most vulnerable moments. Your writing as a family member is a close reminder to what my patients and their families must go through, something easily forgotten in the everyday business of just trying to get the patients through the next shift. Thank you for reminding me of the compassion the family needs in these frightening and uncertain hours. Again, if you need anyone to talk to I'm here for you! Having been reconnected to you has really reminded me of how far off I've gone off path and you inspire me to fight for what I believe in and hang on with everything I have. You make such a difference in so many people's lives, especially your family's lives. I pray God will give you a sense of deep peace during these painful times. I love you and will continue to pray for you my sister! Report - Delete

Chey M wrote at 3:17pm yesterday Lisa, I am so sorry to hear about your mother. My experience is not exactly the same as yours, but I understand what you are thinking and going through. In many ways I think it is tougher for you. My mom passed away less than a year ago suddenly. You are experiencing a different kind of death with your mother. When you said that you are grieving the loss of relationship with your mother you were so correct. I will pray for you sis. I have not been on facebook much, so this is the first I have read about your mom. Your family is in my prayers. What a blessing you have been to your family. Also, I had no idea you were planning on going back to college! Yeah, you! Trust God and His timing. I miss you. Dad wants us to come back for the anniversary of mom's death. I might be there for Christmas, but due to school starting, I cannot stay until the 4th. I'll keep you posted. Aloha Report - Delete

Starr Segovia wrote at 8:41pm yesterday Lisa I will be praying for comfort and strength for you and your family!!! Report - Delete